past few days and today
Thursday, July 06, 2006
| have been thinking quite alot lately.... 1stly... ytd went out with mama and kor to watch superman... then took neoprint... then at night dinner with papa and his frd and kor kor... my family life dun look as "perfect" as other sees u know...wanna tell others... wana share.... wanna lighten my pressure.... but i cant do it infront of my mama... and even when i try to tell my buddies... they will just shut my mouth by saying "hahaha funny har? dun bluff" was it tat i lied too many times? or ppl just simply see me as how i am from the appearance???? putting tat aside.... today rainy din come to sch!!! why?! i figured she must have overslept..... hahaa... so i smsed... then she ask me abt her results... and sam ak james and i sorta gang up to trick her abt her results..... well... sorry for the trick thingy.... hahaha! but she din reply me after tat maybe was over-shocked??? so so so sorry!!!!! ahhaa..... kinda miss her le! one day no see her smiling face.... then today... was suppose to go "dancing" with yy..... but guess wat?! i din wanna go... and vickie and annie wanted to eat pizza.... from the surface it may seem as though they pulled me... but the real fact was.... they pulled me!!! and i din wanna go! so it was 2 way thing,... hahaha... sorry yy for abandoning u... hahaha~! then he called me just to tell me how tasty the german cuisine was.... trying to tempt me??? tell u wat... it did not work!!! hahaha~!~!~!` but thanx for the offer... i promise i will go the next time round... hahaha! i finally saw someone i wanted to see... hahaha i guess only banny and yy know wat i'm saying... hahaha! she look cute i must say.... hahhaa... feeling abit demoralising... but it's okay! no idea why.... but i chose to be with my frds and have fun with them instead of dancing... but i gain sth i really wanted tonight... hahaha! i must say... thank you to everyone! hahaa.... anywayx... i wanna cut my hair!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! desperately!!!!!! hahaha.... i wanna have a better hairstyle..... and oso have nicer clothes!!!! no idea why... but i'm like struggling so hard not to lack back at the trends and oso not to be an aunty forever.... this may sound crazy as... ppl call me aunty for fun... but i'm like thinking tat i'm more and more aunty like... so i wanna get out of this life... and i'm going to! hahaha... but of cos i wun wanna apply any funny things on my face... spoil my skin only... =X seriously and honestly.... i hate to leave u behind cos i know the feeling today.... wanna say sorry... and thanx for giving me a feeling tat u really need me as a frd... u may not speak to me all the time... but i want u to know i'm willing to listen.... hahha.... is it okay if i ask u to stay by my side from this moment on too??? pretty difficult huh? cos everyone seems to need u.... thanx for ur care and concern everytime.... and pls continue doing so... cos it encourages me a ton... heex.... and i tot u wun know wat i was looking just now... but u could actually say it out... really surprising... and also thanx for "revenging" wat i do everytime..... cos it let me feels tat i can stay close to u.... no matter as relationship or not... i just wanna treasure the frdship i have with u from now on.... becos i know from now... i really cant let go..... |
