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hi everyone! erm... my entry today is actually boring... overall i find tat none of my entries have been interesting at all....
First! i would like to thank Chun Mei... always my good friend... and there is a short msg i wanna tell her... here it goes: Hey GurL! i've seen wat happen to u after he left u.... i dun wanna tat to happen to me too... but i really cant control this love... it's not child's play anymore.... i'm serious... i do not know how much i love him... but i just know i do... i do care abt him... looking at him happy doesnt mean i will be happy too... those sentence were just plainly crap... if he can do this to his gf now... he can do it to me in the future if we are together.... but is tat a 100% sure thing tat he will do tat to me too??? i know wat i'm saying now is selfish... and dumb... but ppl are dumb at some angles and selfish at times.... i've got lots of advise from ppl here and ppl in sg... and of cos from u too... i would like to hind ur advise but it just wun get into my mind... as u know i am a person who is quite stubborn.... i really really want to fight for it... i will nv know the taste of victory/defeat if i nv fight at all.... yeah? i will only fall and stand up again if i happen to me... and not to see wat had happen to ppl around me.. it's not enough.... it's not enough for a stubborn person like me... yeah? and... there cannot be 3 ppl who are not hurt... ultimately the one getting hurt is me... u are so so right but there will not be a case where all 3 of us are not hurt.... alright? wat i need is support... but then again... i thank you for being there for me when i needed you... you'll always be my very very good friend.... god bless you!

Second to weixin: so! wat have u been doing lately? slack? haha... dun skip sch alright... it's not gd... i got to tell u this..... i had this dream 2 days ago... the dream is abt him leaving my life... leaving for good... i could almost feel it... it's so damn real... maybe it's a hind.. i am not sure... but i am sure tat i wouldn't want tat to happen... well... i'm sure u dun want the ppl u love to leave u for good right? sigh.... i really want to go back in time... i really wanna go back to the time where i'm still myself... i realised i am not myself lately... i dun even feel right... i'm not doing my things right at all... it's all stressed up... i cry in my dreams... i dunno why... i just wanna go back where i can be the lame and dumb girl w/o much to think abt... i miss u guys so so much.... somehow i kind of regret coming back... i dunno why... i can almost find myself crying to go back.... i am somehow finding myself suffering... little adding to a little everyday equals to alot... isnt it? i really hope he dun leave me for good... go listen this song "over" by lindsay lohan.... the chorus part saying "i can't live without you, i can't breathe without you, and i dream about you" this is simply happening to me.... but of cos i can live w/o him.... maybe not the full me but the half me tat is alive... understand? oh well... i'll stop here.... u take care alright?! you'll always be my best friend!

Thirdly to maybelin: YO CHAR BO!!!!! hows ur work? tiring eh? but ur pay is higher... hahaha! sure do treat me someday man! lets go play pool and catch movie alright? maybe not movie... cos my current situation is not in the condition to watch any movie... cos it will only be a waste of money... maybe go do some stuff like window shopping or play sth where i can verge my angers and release all my depressions.... can? i know i have been selfish towards u and weixin lately... cos i cared more abt myself and u guys... i'm so so sorry abt tat alright? i'll try to repay it back when i'm fully recharged! i know u may think i'm sort of a bitch to go for someone who already have a relationship with other girl.... i know i know... but then wat i think is tat... if they broke up becos of me... it's sort of my wrong... and it's oso their wrong cos their love is not strong? it's such a bitchy thing for me to say right? but tat somehow seems to be true.... hai... unless u can help me find a single guy to go after me maybe tat will make me forget him.... haha! dumb idea right?! yeah.... now... i just wish u can pop out and appear by my side.... alright? i hope u will support me for fighting it through... i really want him.... not an easy battle but i want to know the taste of victory/defeat.... ok? god bless you and you'll always be my best friend

lastly to ppl in the office: whoever in the office reads these are lucky people! haha! crap!!! i want to say thank you for taking good care of me these 2 months... i know i am very stubborn almost all of the times... and my demands are always a sure thing.... but u guys are doing good... just tat u guys need to work faster and more efficiently... okay? i'll always support in watever u do... alright? grandpa: dun smoke too much alright? it's so BAD for health.... and thanx for listening to all my complains! brother glenn: thanx for being such a wonderful brother.... haha! i miss my real brother very much.... who is denis!!! haha! anywayx... thanx for the chocolate yeah? erm who else.... august: hey yo!!! thanx for teaching me so many things... although wat u teach me are all crumble up! jump jump here and jump jump there.... very very confusing! haha... lastly to handi: jangan kebanyakan smoking ya? tidak bagus.... aku cuma mau bilang terima kasih... kenapa aku mau bilang thanx ya? itu karena kamu kasih saya a wonderful memory.... alright? ngerti ga? you gave me the taste of sweet/sour/bitter of love.... ( klo nggak ngerti tanyak orang di kantor ya!) thank you so so much... terus... aku mau bilang i still love u very much dan aku nggak tahu when this love will stop.... yah?

alright!!!! long entry this time.... lolx! sure do tag my blog guys! bye bye!!!! take care and best of luck!