Going down even deeper than before...
Thursday, February 10, 2005
well... hi once again! lolx... if u had read my previous entry... u will know wat i am going to talk abt today... yes.... my feeling has goen down even deeper than before... how had this happen? i have no idea..... i really want this to come to an end.... but i dont seem to see the glimpse of light in this dark tunnel..... sigh... how?
look! he has a girlfriend whom he loves so so much... but yet why can he ask me qns tat seem as though he dun even care abt his girlfriend... well he asked me things like "do u really2 like me really2 love me?" "do u miss me now?" "if i dun have a girfriend now do u wanna be mine?" oh my god..... he is not trying to tell me"hey look, i got a gf whom i really love so i hope u would understand" yet... the msg i get from all this qns are" i kinda like u too but i got a gf..." so? wat is he trying to say? i dun understand at all.... he is driving me crazy.... even crazy than before... and this morning when i sms him he replied "i'm with my gf now so dun sms me back... wait till i get home" his he trying to make me happy behind his gf??? well... u bet i AM jealous! i really AM jealous.... to be honest... i nv get jealous over other ppl be4... i mean in this kind of complicated matter..... i really am jealous.... wat does these all means? does these all means tat i really had fall in love? or just a mere crush again? now i only hope tat he would tell his gf abt me..... tell her tat a girl told him tat she like him... well at least they would quarrel abit... from this quarrel i can see whether her gf really loves him or if he really loves her.... i'm not trying to be a bitch here but i just wanna to test them....
but well... yeah.... ppl who read this may think tat i'm a bitch... i do feel like a bitch/slut for loving him... cos he already has a gf... i find tat i am the 3rd party in destroying them.... wat am i suppose to do???
