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hi..... where did i stop the last time? i forgot... anywayz.... i think i said he ask me whether i miss him or not.... i replied yes.... and i asked him if he does miss me too? he replied very much.... so the next day i asked.... he said he miss me issit becos we are just friends? he replied..... no.... he said he got feelings for me but not very deep yet.... and he loves his girlfriend.... wat is tat suppose to mean???????????? i feel like a slut/bitch... seriously feel like tat now.... oh well... i am the culprit who caused all these troubles anyway.............. -_-"! i feel tat he is playing with my feelings...... i dunno wat i'm typing today.... not really myself lately.... feel so different..... i'm not even concentrating.... focus is wat i need but it din come.... or should i say where did my concentration and focuses went to? i had a terrible and sufocating day yesterday.... i really feel like crying.... sheesh........ and today it was a half day work for him but full for me... when i reach the office.... i guess he just reach too cos we signed in together today... and i feel so weird today.... like someone was looking at me.... when i was doing my drawing.... i sensed tat some one was really looking at me... and when i turn around to take a glance i realised it was him...... i'm so afraid to look into his eyes.... afraid of looking into his eyes shows tat i'm running away from reality and tat is not wat i want to do! he just hang me down there and not giving me a definite answer..... he is driving me mad..... but his eye sight to me today is sorta different.... it's as though its trying to tell me sth..... tell me sth real important but i chose to ignore..... becos i'm running away tats why... i guess i shall stop here.... i cant think well tats why.....