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very long nv blog already....... maybe i shld just fill up the missing pieces......

sad to say i broke up with weelee.... but i still find him a very nice guy ^^

with kelvin now... the unexpected has happened is the only sentence i can use to describe....
many ppl may say "wah lao! so fast with new guy...." how do i feel abt tat? honestly, yes i do feel upset... y? cos if any of the ppl out there say liddat... means they dun unds me...

having been tgt with 3 guys so far..... all 3 are ppl whom i so-called woo them 1st... somehow or rather i always feel tat i'm always going after the things i wanted..... things tat come by easily always seem so fake...........

regarding the word love.... i agree with wat brother vin said..... he said it's always abt giving out love n not expecting anything in return... cos if there is a return it shall be a bonus....

i received my bonus.... i nv expected anything in return..... i really get my bonus.... i'm glad that i have it.... but sometimes i dunno wat he is thinking....

issit becos of our age gap? 6 yrs seriously dun seem to be that far apart.... but i nv seem to be able to get it... today went out with kel for dinner n movie.... yes i'm still feeling weird having him to pay for my meals n tix, if i were to pay him back.... i guess he will nag abt why cant he pay..... so i wanted to save my ears..... nv pay him back... treat him back next time bah^^

resident evil after life.... from my korkor he say it's nice went to watch.. somehow i feel that, it's not that super nice -_-"~!

had some chats with kel.. issit becos when 2 person are tgt.... they tend to be greedy n wanna step over de line? i realised, when he wanted to know more abt my stuff, i'll share w/o hesitation... and i do expect it to be vice versa... but i was wrong.... i tot he will share but he din... makes me feel like..... i'm being sucked dry yet i have nth to refill....

but again i tell myself..... close both eyes... let it pass by.... i dun wish to argue, quarrel n end up crying to slp......... i just wanna inject nice memories in my brain.... then the next second, i realised i'm lying to myself..

i ask not becos i wanna dig ur privacy.... i ask becos i care....

simply hate the feeling of feeling upset n no mood w/o knowing why....

sucks.... the feeling simply sucks... -_-"~! how to kick this weird habit sia?

i tot u were be out in tat very instance... was wrong... waited... yet it became 1hr even though u knew i had to work...

simple qns.... u knew the ans i simply cant bring myself to ans... reason being... the ans can be answered even w/o thinking...

dam it! get it off already.... -_-"~! stupid emo-ness.... stop haunting me will ya?

went to browse thru all my photos...

to me meaning of photos? capture the happy moments, sad moments, still moments.... time is stopped for that particular moment....

hesitation in deleting some no doubt its just going to be memories but yet.... i feel tat it is haunting me at times...

aiyoYO~ where has my confident gone to... come back pls.... -_-"~!

lets just keep track on our foot steps in the future ^^

WoOOH~!~! thanx rainy gal~ owe u one~ will treat u a meal ok~~~ it's not one grain of cooked rice but a whole big meal hao bu hao??? heex~~~

went to k session with dear n his frds~ wooH! luck luckY~ lucky that dear de friends are so nice.... yao bu ran... i'm dead! XD

eh.... actually dun remb their names... -_-"~! i only remb its junlong, joseph, and dear ur neighbour de name i dunno i only know the nick tat u gave him -_-"~!

hahaha~ guess wat song i so called "ordered"? national anthem... -_-"~! okok i'm being lame lar~ of cos 1st song is the usual one i sing =X

haven went for K session for quite some time already.... so yeap! my voice still suck as ever~ hahahahaa~ and i'm pretty surprised with the cost... cos it's not as ex as kbox... although drink sucks but i find the environment better??? no idea~ mic sucks though... -_-"~!

went to find mother's day present with dear... walked the whole bugis... a little regret not pulling him to tangs to buy cos i got member!! can get 6% rebate -_-"~!~!~! ah~ but just so lazy to go there.... bought a braun buffel wallet for his mom... 1/2... 1/2... heex~

i really braun buffel fan XD hope his mom likes it~ heex~~

then went to buy tix~ to watch movie watched house... actually wanted to watch x-men but only left 1st 2 rows de seats.... argh~ then change to house..

lousy show? starting was ok.... ending was -_-"~!

had pepper lunch express for dinner~ wooH~ VERY long nv finish my dinner already!!!! YAY~~~~~ heex....

chit chatted with dear at bus stop till 11.45pm...

ni dui wo de hao rang wo wu fa fang qi ni...

ehm.... weird wake up surprise for me... slut eh?? i wonder who?

if its who i'm thinking... pls dun comment anymore cos i din even say anything to him either...

if u happen to find a new partner i wish u all the best....

aiyO~!~!~! i slept from 8.45am to 12.45pm.... -_-"~! wat "long" nap is tat??!?!?!!?

its okay~ i'm fine~ i will slp early tonight~ HOPEFULLY! hahahaa~! i realise i can really survive with little slp.... am i getting old or wat? the fear of death in slping??? hahahaha~ NAH!!!! -_-"~!

oh~ im just so bored lar... dear dear MIA dunno wake up liao or not.... T_T i guess i'll just hang ard my computer doing nth~ hahaha~!

hungry.... in search of food

omg.... i reached home ard 7.10am... gosh i'm really tired...

thanx for giving me a chance ^^ most imptly thanx for saying that u love me cos it really meant alot.... realising that those words can really make me trust u so much more....

even though its just sitting down chit chatting... or just sitting down lying on ur shoulder already made me feel very xing fu...

i wun screw up this time.... hopefully -_-"~!

jyjy next 50 yrs hor ^^ =X

wo xian zai de xing fu dou shi ni gei wo de... xie xie

aiye~~~ went dental this morning.... hahaha~!

met maple dear aka future dear for the 1st time... -_-"~! mai keep looking at my dark circles can..... i swear i get my pretty eyes back F5!!!! bleh~ ^^
Rainy came to see her blk p,then i ask her to shun bian come over say hi to dear =X hahaha~! rainy gal~! so long nv see u.... why are u getting thinner n thinner? blk p bo feed u well arh!? WHACK HIM ARH!!!!

met up with lao po (natalie) to sign contract.... hahaha~! nat nat~~~~ u need to pay $200 to be taller than me leh! not worth it! pls dun~ =X

overall a very happy day becos of everyone who always surrounds me ^^

finally i understand the root of my problem...

just say one sentence to me.... and i promise u have my complete trust....

diana.... why are u always so slow.... -_-"~! this one sentence can really clear all my doubts....

and clearing my doubts means i can really dun demand so much due to my fear....

my fear: to lose u...

the sentence is the ans to my qns... qns : how do u feel abt me?

tats all.... we started but yet u nv told me be4... ^^

love ya always