Thursday, September 23, 2010
very long nv blog already....... maybe i shld just fill up the missing pieces......
sad to say i broke up with weelee.... but i still find him a very nice guy ^^
with kelvin now... the unexpected has happened is the only sentence i can use to describe....
many ppl may say "wah lao! so fast with new guy...." how do i feel abt tat? honestly, yes i do feel upset... y? cos if any of the ppl out there say liddat... means they dun unds me...
having been tgt with 3 guys so far..... all 3 are ppl whom i so-called woo them 1st... somehow or rather i always feel tat i'm always going after the things i wanted..... things tat come by easily always seem so fake...........
regarding the word love.... i agree with wat brother vin said..... he said it's always abt giving out love n not expecting anything in return... cos if there is a return it shall be a bonus....
i received my bonus.... i nv expected anything in return..... i really get my bonus.... i'm glad that i have it.... but sometimes i dunno wat he is thinking....
issit becos of our age gap? 6 yrs seriously dun seem to be that far apart.... but i nv seem to be able to get it... today went out with kel for dinner n movie.... yes i'm still feeling weird having him to pay for my meals n tix, if i were to pay him back.... i guess he will nag abt why cant he pay..... so i wanted to save my ears..... nv pay him back... treat him back next time bah^^
resident evil after life.... from my korkor he say it's nice went to watch.. somehow i feel that, it's not that super nice -_-"~!
had some chats with kel.. issit becos when 2 person are tgt.... they tend to be greedy n wanna step over de line? i realised, when he wanted to know more abt my stuff, i'll share w/o hesitation... and i do expect it to be vice versa... but i was wrong.... i tot he will share but he din... makes me feel like..... i'm being sucked dry yet i have nth to refill....
but again i tell myself..... close both eyes... let it pass by.... i dun wish to argue, quarrel n end up crying to slp......... i just wanna inject nice memories in my brain.... then the next second, i realised i'm lying to myself..
i ask not becos i wanna dig ur privacy.... i ask becos i care....
