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i have no idea wat to say..... lolx... haha! i jsut came back from m'sia.... made my passport.... yay!!! i can go indonesia again! erm... i wanna apologise... i dunno to whom... but Sorry is wat i want to say.... i dunno why... but there is a urge in me which tells me tat i have to say sorry.... but again i still feel lonely as usual.... no matter how many Sorries i say..... wat i want will not come.... maybe i shld just let it go in order to get wat i deserve..... lolx....

abt my studies... let's see... i have not made my visa to america... so i think my chances of going overseas to study is quite slim... i just pray hard tat any poly in singapore wants me as their mechatroni engineering student.... which is oso quite slim... the only chance tat is NOT slim is going back to peicai... and tat is the only place i will not want to go back... i mean if it is to go back to visit teachers it's okay... but if it's going back to study as a secondary 4 student again... NO WAY AM I GOING TO STEP INTO TAT SCHOOL ONCE AGAIN!!! now... do u see it? i really dun want to go back.... unless u guys make me faint and u guys drag me back there... lolx... and i realise tat... i really really want polys to accept me.... i will work hard... i will dig for bks all day long.... but i just dun want to go back peicai.... 2nd reason why i want them to accept me is becos i want to go back indo... i want to have my days where i create so much noise in the office.... i want to say "i'm hungry like shit"again.... i oso wanna say"dun make me slap u" again.... if i say those down here.... i just feel tat no one is going to joke abt it.... haha.... i miss the ppl there.... especially the food..... haha.... i realised tat i think abt him much much lesser now... but there are times i keep thinking things like... where is he now and wat is he doing now... but i still feel very strongly tat i love him.... the feeling is not gone... just tat i try to occupy myself with things to do so tat i dun think abt him so much.... wanna know why i do tat? it's becos i want myself to know tat i'm still young.... i cannot give up the whole forest becos of one small tree... but then i still love him... isnt tat weird? humans are weird and dumb sometimes.... (manusia bodoh) i'll stop here for today's entry..... my teeth is hurting me... i wonder why..... bye ! love peace no war!