halo!
Monday, March 21, 2005
halo! yes! as u can see it has been such a long time i've blogged... actually not very long... abt one month or so?? lolx.... i know tat i got no die-hard fans for my blog... so i doubt anyone would be reading my blog other than wx(my best friend) lolx... there is no specific topic for today.... it will all be toking abt me... me... AND ME! hahaha! oh well... wanna know why i haven ben blogging... simple reasons... and there are: i have no idea wat to blog.... and i'm sort of sick of blogging... tats why....
oh dear... i've gotten fatter ever since i came back from indo.... must be my mom... lolx! cook too much and too delicious... just cant stop eating... lolx! might be going back to indo soon... MIGHT BE so it means it is not confirmed.... this trip back... i hope it iwll be a better one.... why do i want to go back in the 1st place? gd qns.... i want to see him.... i want him to know tat i am definitely living a better life than he is... and i also want to go back to help my dad.... not only helping him in working life but also his personal life... as his daughter i cannot be seeing him not toking to anyone in the family but me... it's not fair for others... especially my mom... i dun want to have a family full of misunderstanding and no one stepping up to correct themselves or clear the mess... at my age... i have no idea if i can do it... but i must try... i must try to make miracle happen.... and i must oso admit tat.... my love for him is dying.... simple becos i think he is not worth my waiting and i feel extremely tired loving him.... nowadays i;m having dreams revolving around him... i'm sick and tired of waking up in the night feeling sad and confused.... theis must come to an end.... and i oso realised tat i am sort of interested in this guy i knew recently.... to me... e is quiet..... a guy who i think is not my type but his silence makes me wanna know abt him more... lolx! oh well.. tats abt it... i have no idea wat ot type anymore... remember my friends! love peace no war and stay healthy... tat is more important than anything else.... w/o a gd health condition u are simply zero....